Monthly Archives: December 2021

I realize that it notes that there are 9 additional photos, but in order to see them you would have to go to face book. They don’t all transport from face book to my blog.

……………………Many times other peoples words ring so true for me…………..I think they all speak for themselves! These are quotes I found on face book. I have lots more, but some of the language may offend even though they are from face book…..and funny

QVC IS HAVING A JEWELRY SALE!!!!! ALL OF THE STERLING SILVER AND STERLING WITH GOLD PLATE IS ON SALE TOO…….plus 5 EZ PAYS……now is the perfect time to get the LOCKET, the ALL YOU HAVE TO BE IS WONDERFUL NECKLACE or the fabulous HOOP EARRINGS…………..ALL ON SALE

……………………….I invited my two nephews, Christopher and Mathew, and their two girlfriends, Danielle and Michelle to spend the weekend with me……I decided, instead of going to a restaurant I would cook….so like any good Italian would do I made a big pan of hot Italian sausage and mixed peppers with a side dish of tortellini with Marinara sauce…….We started with a large antipasto platter…….waited a while and then I cooked the main course which took about one hour. The boys and girls brought lots of other goodies to eat.  Chris brought wo different Italian breads, and for desert Chris also brought Lobster Claw pastries filled with French cream and cannolis……..plus I made a big batch of Ginger cookers the day before. Danielle brought me a container filled with chocolate and caramel squares…….yummy……..Lots of wine and beer was consumed, but that was OK everyone was sleeping over……Lots of stories were shared around the fire…..Uncle Lou has become the chief story teller, but my nephews, as the onion gets peeled, have many stories to tell too…as do the girls……They shared stories with me that they had of their Aunt Jac…..It was nice to hear stories about Jac other than my own…. At about 11:30 the wine and food started to hit, and sleep was upon us……we all retired…….In the morning I made coffee, and I had made a very large bowl of refreshing mixed fruit and berry salad in orange juice…….Christ toasted sliced pieces of Italian bread and generously slathered them with sweet butter……Ginger cookies all around…….I offered to make eggs or pancakes, but everyone was still full from the night before…so the fruit salad, the toast and cookies were enough……I started a fire and once again we sat and ATE breakfast, and talked, but this time we made Mimosas to make the breakfast even more festive…….Later on, before they all left, we heated up the sausage and peppers, the Italian bread, and had a little lunch……….Everyone was very happy and relaxed including SAMMY who wasn’t used to the excitement…she was in her glory with everyone giving her tastes of this and that……all under my supervision…………..At high tide in the late evening…..I went to the waters edge, and threw Lily, Annie, and Ellie B’s ashes into the sea to be with Jac……Another anniversary has passed, and another year has begun.

……………………On this day, December 12th, four years ago at approximately 3:40 in the afternoon my Jac left her earthly body for her final journey to Heaven…..to be with her Mom. When we learned that there was nothing else that could help her….no magic pill….she bravely told me she wanted to “go home to her mom”…..I promised her that I would make her wish come true…………promises made……………promises kept……I have read books about grief and loss, and have come to realize the tears I shed for Jac are…..”sacred tears”….”the deeper the love….the deeper the grief”…….Jac had a book called “Safe Passages” which she wanted with her when she was cremated. Months later I found another copy she had hidden for me to find…..She wisely knew I would need time before I could even open a book like this….She ear marked certain pages…….These are just two of the passages…………….”Rest assured that in her dying, in her flight through darkness toward a new light, she held you in her arms and carried your closeness with her. And when she arrived at God, your image was imprinted on her joy filled soul”………………”I lie in the dark….aware that in the distance…the music of life is playing. Even in my grieving for you, I am drawn to the sounds and my body begins to stir……Your voice, next to me in the night…gives me a little nudge……”Go ahead Dance”…….So I stand up, still clothed in darkness, and held up my arms. A long twirl, a low dip. Silently, I come to life like a marionette who has been touched by magic…..Please don’t give me away…..not yet…..I’m not ready for anyone to know I’m dancing in the darkness”………………..When ever I am at my lowest I reach for this book for a message from Jac, and the page I open to always seems to be just the right message…..of course it is….it’s Jac’s message to me……..I don’t always feel better, but I know Jac is with me and always will be……………..I chose this picture of Jac at sunset on the Island of Anguilla. It was our “HAPPY” place where we were our most relaxed, and just enjoyed and loved being together. When I saw the sun’s setting light on her she was so beautiful, and it was truly heavenly. I had to capture the moment……..I believe I did………Today Lily and Ellie’s ashes [Elizabeth, Margret, Taylor, Dubelle, Dell’Olio] will be joining Jac in the sea….I’ve been saving Ellie’s ashes for so long, but now is the perfect time……….I know they will be happy to be together again, and Jac can spoil them in heaven……………….Another day closer my sweetheart.